I was on the fading edge of wakefulness when
he told me he bought a handgun—
then asked
does that bother you?
I hesitantly answered no—
but honestly?
it had not had time
to sink in
you know
in case there is a coup
he added
Later as he fucked me
I looked in his eyes
hoping to see a killer—
thinking it would help me get off
but I only saw a scared little boy
trying, failing to disappear
into another womb
~
